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SISC, camp and MORE camp

and everything is sooo over! :D I awarded myself 12 hours of sleep today (in fact i just woke up not long ago) but it's definitely not enough compared to the 2 hectic weeks with severe lack of sleep and as a result, many moments blanking out and dozing off.
SISC was.. well, an one in a lifetime experience. Or i so hope i will not have to go through it any more in my one and a half year left in Singapore. Last minute bombardments of instructions from teachers, blazers that can't be drawn out, ties that can't be found, a handful of not-so-responsible but quite kaypoh people who signed up for duties and vanished without a trace after that, leaving us with manpower problem, late night work, buses that refused to come and even some unspeakable issues, everything added up together and drove me nuts for a few days.
Well but looking on the bright side, there were moments which i would keep in my hearts forever, friends who i became closer to, the sweet feeling of accomplishment after all is over and truckloads of nice pictures to keep in my laptop. And not to forget, a rocking teacher who i believe all of us who worked with him have come to love so much. I always know that you're nice, but i'm glad that others realized too that you have a golden heart behind your fierce appearance.
Some people were telling me, wow, "Student Organizing Committee, so glam!", and i just laughed. Was it even a team? You know at the end of orientation when we took pictures together and smiled together for all the pics, there were a genuine sad feeling that it was all over. There were real friendships that were forged and everyone really went through all the ups and downs of orientation together. I can't say the same thing for SISC. Maybe that was the reason why i kept myself out of all the "main comm" pictures.
But the ceremonies comm was undoubtedly the best team i could ever work with :)

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We didn't really look vry nice in the picture but it was the only i have cos Jingjie kept running around talking to all the girls (!)
I really love my external ushers team. You guys are always on time, always turned up for rehearsals and stuff, never complain (or at least not in front of me) and just fantastic! And thanx alot to the volunteered ushers team (those who were persuaded into ushering by me. U guys were not exactly into the idea but did it nonetheless, and i'm grateful for that.)

Some more pix :D

This was taken by me! Really!

So amazing right :)
After SISC was a 1 day shopping spree with my dad! muahahahaha although he only came for less than 2 days, i managed to drag him to go shopping with me and i believe i kinda drained all his money :D it's like there was this old (quite fat) man walking in Topshop mango zara forever 21 fcuk etc. with a little (also quite fat) girl and bought A LOT of things! Not to mention good food and nice hotel. How i love daddy. But then again, i only get to see him like what 3 times a year?
Things that Dad bought for me: totaled up to around a few hundreds
The one day that Dad spent with me: priceless
SnT camp was...er... okay. Like there was no surprises and i have gone for much more fun camps. But the post-speech part was kinda nerve wracking. It's not like it's the first time i was making speech in front of a crowd, so it was generally okay i guess although i wasn't exactly prepared (whoops). It was the very last part when Jj posed the very last question (i shall refrain from writing it out here. If you were there then you know la) that was kinda nightmarish.
Astro CIP camp was fun! Tiring like siao, but fun. It is heartwarming to see the kids really enjoy themselves and the survey results were fantastic! :D They loved the games and they love us! Yay! But if there were 10 more of aswin (the genius i know..), we might die.. :D

I will not be so open about how i feel anymore.

♥ Michelle: Auf Wiedersehen!

5/31/2007 02:33:00 AM

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♥ Thursday, May 24, 2007

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looooongg-windedness

I think i should stop being so rambl-y and long winded.
- My messages are all very long. Like 2 pages minimum and the longest is like 5 pages. AND i cry whenever i get my phone bills !
- Even my blog tags are long too!
- My GP answers are all vry long (although i was like writing them in class during lesson). In fact, because i didn't see the 180 word limit for the summary, i wrote around 3 to 400 and got three out of 12. HAHAHA
- My history essays have "more concise - can be condensed further - redundant" comments written all over them.
And the thing is, i don't know how can i even afford to be writing one unnecessary word during Common Test.
I should start concis-ing myself now! Thus, this entry is short and sweet :) (hehe maybe i'm just lazy. Drained because of SISC)

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5/24/2007 10:52:00 AM

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♥ Wednesday, May 16, 2007

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Changes :)

I shudder to think how much i've changed ever since i set foot to Singapore almost three years ago. You can't really see how drastic the changes are no matter how others try to persuade you, especially when you don't exactly intend to change you see. Like my seniors and friends kept telling me, you're the one who changed the most. And i'll be like "WHY? No! its not me ! i never change at all lah." It's only when you dig up your photos ever since the very old time and compare it to the person you see in the mirror today does the reality really strike you. Haha. I laughed at how obiang (terribly out of fashion) i looked back then, with the thick untamed fringe-less hair, unguarded eyes and unbranded clothes. Okay i'm not saying i look very nice now but one thing is for sure, i look damn different. :P like for some, in fact many of my vietnamese friends who haven't seen me at all for years right, they'll probably be quite surprised to see me now. Maybe they won't even know it's me at all !
Some of the visible changes might include:
- i get fatter. wuahahahaha no seriously )": *cries like hell* blame it on McDonald's ThaiExpress Starbucks Coffee club and the like.
- my hair is damn short now. As you can see in the above picture. and it keeps all flared out (-.-) like i'm electrocuted and terribly out of shape every once in a while. I'm frightened at how much money i've wasted on cutting and trimming hair. DAMMNN. And the most worrying part is that I'M FREAKING BALDING! i'm shedding hair like mad. really. And while animals (cats, dogs, birds etc.) only lose hair during some specific seasons, my hair drops whenever i'm stressed, which means all year round. I so totally miss my thick hair last time. OHMANSS. You take things for granted and don't realize their true values until you have totally lost them.
In a hot country like Singapore when PE is really torturous and you have to constantly run around in school until late every 3 days a week, short hair is like a must if you don't want to sweat like hell at the end of the day. In fact almost everyone has short hair ! But when i go back home i look like some weird creature from outer space. Cause everyone has nice long rebonded hair.
- my dress sense has totally changed. It's slightly better and more trendy now. I think. Or maybe I hope. My clothes get relatively shorter also. No it's not because i have nice figure. Definitely not. Blame it on the annoyingly hot weather instead. Short clothes are more comfortable also, and even when you have pot belly and wobbly thighs, there comes a point in time when you totally don't care already and will just reach out for shorts and sleeveless tops in your wardrobe every time you go out.
Oh and i'm more brand-conscious. Somehow. It's not good but i can't seem to help it.

Apart from those visible changes, there are some changes within me also. I've become more sceptical towards life, more sadistic, more easily irritated, more intolerant, more outspoken, more pig-headed, more insecure, more stressed, more english, more bitchy, more critical towards myself and others, more Michelle than Bich Ngoc.
=) i hope you know what i mean. i think it's partly because living in a totally foreign country with your parents not around forces you to change, to observe life and people more carefully and thus, change. It's not necessarily all for a better you. You know, if given a choice, i'd prefer to stay happy and carefree and worry-free like before, when i believe everyone is instinctively nice and things will turn out fine in the end. Look at who i am now. Maybe to most people i still appear as this happy bubbly girl who doesn't seem to worry one bit about life, but there's always a huge difference between who you want others to see you as and who you really are. Or at least to me there is.

But then there are still some parts in me that stay the same throughout. My heart beats faster when i see cute guys. Anyone. Even when i'm already with someone else. Haha. I cry when people do the slightest nice things to me even though they might not realize themselves how much all those littlest things mean to me :) I feel happy whenever i re-read Hana Yori Dango (it's like this very famous japanese comics series). I once thought it has totally become a childhood memory that has to be forgotten if i want to move on in life. Truth is, it still is something that i love. I still love and appreciate all the friends i have. Because as you go along with life, face more shitty things and know more sucky people, you realize how important friends are. They are the only one you can truly turn to no matter what happens.

So yup, to all my friends: wherever you are, no matter how many times i actually see you a year (might be once, or zero even), my heart still skip a beat when i am reminded of your face and the good times we spent together. I smile whenever i re-read all the little notes you have written to me, with all your "scoldings" and praises (:">). And i feel so warm knowing that i can live a fuller life taking delight in simplicity like loving people sincerely and true friendships, even at a distance.

<3

♥ Michelle: Auf Wiedersehen!

5/16/2007 10:37:00 AM

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♥ Sunday, May 13, 2007

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and so i have two blogs!

HAHA no i'm not free at all but i thought it might be a good idea to set up a yahoo 360 blog and re-connect with all my vietnamese friends ! :D like ALL of them have blog now and I am the outdated one. And I like it ! haha :D like can really "connect" with all your friends very easily, get updates from them really fast and can upload pictures and stuff. And seriously, i think i need the other blog more, cause i hardly see my vietnamese friends at all ! I see them like what once, or twice, a year, and i really really REALLY don't want to forget all those friendships. They are all great people who never once failed to make my day back then, and never once forget me even though, i'm ashamed to admit that some of your names and some of the moments we spent together used to take a back seat in my mind for a really long time. It's comforting to know that no matter what, you will always have good friends to turn to wherever you are. You know, i think everyone should just take one minute or two off the hustles and bustles of life and remember all the good friends you have, all the happy moments you shared with them and realize how blessed you actually are. To just be alive.
Yup so now that a lazy person like me have not only one, but TWO blogs, in two different languages (i'll try to keep writing in vietnamese for the other blog altho i do realize my vietnamese is currently in a devastating state), i think i'll take ages to update. Haha :D but then again, to all my friends in singapore, i think i can share with you guys almost everything in person. I see you all around like every week ! :"> so this blog is more like a place for me to be emo, and to share some share-able gossips so that i won't have to repeat it like don't know how many times a day. I lazy u know :)
Oh and it's kinda nice to see people's comments after they saw your carefully selected pictures... like after a really long time and they told you how much you've changed, and how you look much better now (i shudder to think how i looked three years ago). i think i'm in need for these morale-boosters every once in a while *winks*
P/S: Dear Vietnam, i'm coming back, spiritually :)

♥ Michelle: Auf Wiedersehen!

5/13/2007 11:40:00 AM

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♥ Friday, May 11, 2007

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because love makes time pass

You know there are some days when you wake up not wanting to go to school at all because you know for sure a loooongg day awaits. And when the day finally ends you would walk on the familiar way home under the starry night, smiling so happily and feeling so proud of yourself because you actually went to school and survived that one long day. Today has got to be one of those.
I woke up and was seriously battling with the thought of pont-ing school. You know they always say it's best to stay home and sleep on rainy days. Especially when you have one huge glass window like me, you can just lie on your bed and stare at it, at the same time you feel so blessed thinking of how the rest of the world is like fighting with the heavy rain and you are like enjoying the moment to the max. Haha what sadistic enjoyment :> No i didn't pont school in the end. I couldn't. Not because of the tutorials and lectures i'm going to miss, because seriously, nothing but history actually excites me nowadays, but because of all the post-school activities i have to come for. I allowed myself to be late though.. HAHAHA anyway... that's like beside the point...
I slept through lectures, dozed off during tutorials (only by luck that i actually managed to answer ms. oon's history qns altho i only managed to hear like a few words..) and counted down to lunch - normal stuff. Lunch was fantastic today! How I love the relatively empty canteen ! :) there's no need to chope place with bags and gets frustrated after that cause people totally don't want to care that your bags are there. They just brushed your bags to one side and took the unofficially reserved table. Come on la, we can't possibly write our names and paste on the table and chairs but can't you guys be nice? The canteen uncles and aunties don't greet you with the hurry-up-order-or-you-get-lost face cause they kinda notice the long queue of people behind you. You stroll to the stall graciously instead of run there kaypoh-ly because well, you basically own the canteen for once! Heh so those are basically the reasons why i love having lunch one period earlier than the rest of the world.
I totally love the astro camp's dry run of games today ! :D haha it so reminds me of the solaris fiesta day and orientation and even snt's leadership camp 1 year ago. You guys are really really REALLY a fun and enthu and dedicated bunch who, to my delightful surprise, stayed back all the way from 1 pm plus until 6 plus to wait for the games. I really hope you guys had as much fun trying out all the games as i did. Although it only lasted for slightly more than 1 hour, the whole session was filled with so much fun and laughter it reminded me why I even wanted to be part of this team last year. It made me all of a sudden have faith in astro club again. It made me believe that you guys will make a good team and do well in whatever activities you all may choose to carry out. Ohwell we might not get the astrochallenge championship trophy again, but something told me that it's gonna be one fun year ahead. For a while astro really lost all the meanings it once had to me, but i guess i'm starting to feel the love for the company i have and the things that we do all over again. Dinner was fun (: to those who didn't manage to join us: be sure to make up for ur mistake next time yup ! (:
How i really want the Astro camp to be a huge success. But then again, i really really wanted loads of things this year and look where i am now. So i shall just shut up and fulfil my job duties, and leave the rest to the Goddess of Luck.
The SnT shirts came today! YAYYYY! it was not exactly what it was supposed to turn out to be, but i guess it should be fine. And it was kinda a huge deal for my first attempt at printing shirts by myself with no external help from my mom - seventy plus tee shirts and counting. Haha how i missed the good ol' day when she drove me around the city area to find a good store to print the class-tee. It was kinda a flop but everyone was so nice to not complain one bit. There was like this huge GREEN sun at the back (ya you heard it right, the sun was green) together with some reddish waves thingy.. but overall it made my class tee stand out from the crowd. I suspect it was the huge green sun that deserved the credit. It was right in your face la. *giggles incessantly*
I hope you guys will wear the shirt with love for SnT ! :) even though you might not like the shirt haha :P i know i will like it, even though the print might be a bit smudged and the drawings a bit small, cause SnT is like, honestly, one of the best things that ever happened to me in NJ. Haiz it's already 1 plus in the morning and i'm like shagged after the whole bladdy long day so GOOD NIGHT PPL :) I'm gonna sleep nowww

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5/11/2007 12:10:00 PM

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♥ Thursday, May 03, 2007

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): - (:

I don't believe this! I'm sick again! -.-" crap.
I mean i don't mind if i fall slightly sick once every year so that i can pon school for legitimate reason, but falling sick with this frequency (like the 2nd time in 3 weeks) is RIDICULOUS and UNACCEPTABLE.
Being drowsy, yawning my lectures/tutorials away and feeling like i have zero energy the whole day made me angry. I couldn't even gossip/talk/joke as wholeheartedly as i always do.
Haiz.. maybe its time to reassess my school life. I've never been in this horrible state before while the idea of pont-ing school is like constantly in my mind and i'm irritable not only when i have pms. Maybe i should not try to squeeze so many things into my schedule this year. Having to think how to organize my stuff and ensure that nothing clashes, and feeling uncertain about whether i can do well in all those things make me even MORE stressed. Hair drops (at this rate i might be bald by the time i'm 25! =X). And i keep falling sick.
Anyhow, i'm coming to school tomorrow. There are certain things i can't afford to miss. Camp meeting, interview and coming down to watch sports heats and support my house friends. I'm quite sure i'll have to rely on coffee to stay awake.

But somehow doing all the rahr rahr things never fail to make me feel happy and energized. Although i might collapse the minute i step into my room. For now, i have history essay and position paper to start on, and they're all due tmr!

Oh not to forget, ALL HAIL MY NEW HOUSE CAP! :D Yay! I was so relieved when my friend rushed into the room telling me its "Kok Hao for Solaris!". I kept calm (cause i was like in a rather crowded study room la. dun want ruin my reputation) although i so wanted to start screaming and jumping around. Maybe its because among all of them, you are the one i can connect to the most. And somehow, when you wrote "i'll try to live your dream too", before i knew it tears welled up in my eyes. I was happy for you la. Really. I'm happy for you and i have faith in you. You will win all Solarians' hearts, just like how you never fail to convince all those who know you to like you, with only sincerity and genuine niceness. But must be stronger now k. Your shoulders bear the house's fate and everyone's faith in you. May the force be with you so that you will always be able to stand firmly on your two feet come what may. Of course you'll always have my help and support :)

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5/03/2007 08:45:00 AM

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♥ Tuesday, May 01, 2007

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happy labour day!

Having labour day holiday amidst a hectic week full of tutorials and tests is <3>
I woke up at like 12 today (the original plan was to wake up at 7 and start mugging chem for the test tmr)!
REGRET REGRET REGRET!
Shouldn't have wasted SO MUCH of my time in IBN last year while i could have gone for the KSA trip, or even a sweet and long holiday in vietnam... I mean seriously. Apart from making some really really good friends i've gained absolutely NOTHING from my 2 months there. I didn't even get STaR completion cert cause i didn't get to present my unpatented project. And now so many (good) things are squeezed into the last 2 months of this year and i will have to make some really sad decisions. PW OP, (possible) research, (possible) KSA trip, Japanese level 3 exam, overseas CIP, homecoming for mom and dad's 20th anniversary and (possible) OGL. Darn! I'll have to miss one or SOME of them.
Much as i really want to go home end of this year, i think i CAN'T! So history will repeat itself this year. They, as in my parents, will be throwing a HUGE happy anniversary party and i will be munching cookies, if i still have money by that time, or cup noodles, which is very likely going to be the case judging from past years experiences, ALONE! *cries* life is so bladdy cruel.
I can afford not taking JLPT 3 i guess.. haiz which means i have to either pass next year's JLPT 2 (which is like insanely difficult) OR leave Singapore with only JLPT 4 cert, which is kinda pathetic.
I'm trying to convince myself all the friends i made and the good memories i had in IBN are more important than everything else. And to think that i didn't even take pictures with them last year when i left because i was so sure i'm coming back this year. Ohwells, its just my luck. AGAIN. *pissed* somehow i always have my camera there to capture all my friends' most unglam moments but not my own good memories.
I think i look horrendous in hostel. Haha :D i walk around in fbt shorts, tee shirts (no not the high class branded ones but school's ones) and obiang flip-flops, which was what everyone did two years ago when i first came. But considering that this place is turning into a fashion walkway with the increased number of couples, bimbos and himbos (and another kind who can't be considered good-looking but nevertheless loves to flaunt their skin and their trendy clothes), moving creatures like me who can't be bothered to even wear my earrings are very rare. Almost extinct i must say. I feel like an old auntie from the previous decade whenever i walk around hostel. Lucky i don't even spend much time here.

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5/01/2007 02:34:00 AM

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